I wish i could have enough discipline to get down and finish reading up a book. we all know its always good to read, your command of language improves and you'd definitely learn a thing or two from the book. but i can't seem to get my dusty ass to literally complete a whole book. the book does interest me and all but i seem to find more pleasure in using the internet. which really gets me hooked on for ages, till i neglect my homework and etc. thats much worse isn't it. grr. thats why e-learning week DOESN'T work for me, at all.

yesterday i had a half bath. thats cos' i completely forgot to soap my body! after shampooing my hair, something got into my eye so i walked to the mirror and tried to get it out. after which, i absently mindedly forgot i ain't squeaky clean yet. i conveniently towel dried myself and slipped into my clothes. only after getting dressed, THEN it struck me that i haven't applied conditioner NOR soap. how silly. has that ever happened to you? LOL. i got too lazy to strip and shower again. so i put bath off to the next morning. shhh..

recently i've been watching a japanese serial yinying lent me. its SUPER SUPER sad. i couldn't stop crying on almost every episode. when i left the house later my eyes hurt and my vision was blurred. LOL! i felt amused by my own emo-ness. i used to define myself as someone who is tough on the outside, and who'd never shed a tear infront of others. i never liked crying in front of others. its an ugly side, with smudged mascara running down your cheeks and puffy swollen eyes. not forgetting looking weakly vulnerable too. whenever i watched a sad movie no matter how sad it was, i'd fight my tears back, i didn't want my friends/family see me cry. i didn't like girls who cried alot, and i would find myself snubbing people who cry infront of me. i always believed that one needs to be strong. and not resort to tears. which is really strange now, come to think of it. girls are naturally weaker creatures compared to men, and sometimes the only way to let our feelings out is by these tears. right now i believe its perfectly fine to sob infront of friends, they are around to give you strength. imagine having to pretend like nothing's wrong when your heart is infact breaking. its okay to turn to friends and family for support, and help with whatever you need when you're depressed. no one's going to blame you, it isn't right to hide emotions and pretend to be tough. especially when others are aware that you are actually acting. now, when my girlfriends cry i'd hug and comfort them. nothing's wrong with crying, right? my eyes hurt right now, i just watched episode 7. baahhaaha
i remember the times i've bawled my eyes out. they were when i flunked my Os and when each time when my ol' pets died(yes, i have murdered many animals). there were more times, of course. but i don't remember.


The award for cutest boy in the world goes to:

have met up with Laijie recently and once again he proves why he was labelled cute, small boy of the class. he's nutty and hilarious; never fails to crack me up every time. i'm glad i've got him as my friend. :) though we aren't extremely close, but i know he's a friend who's most accomodating and cheerful. did i mention he looks kinda like a hamster? LOL

Nouru: lol, were you sleepin in class?
yiniE: HAHAHAHAHH! O_O and don't forget the drooping mouth
Diana: hello my darling. lol sch's fine. :)
Elaine: hellos, i didn't bump into you at PS last night. i bumped into huiwen and diana. haha
serena: yep..love the class. thats sweet, thanks so much! :)

lol! just had to. he looks gorgeous. prease agree wit me. *_*


I don't have a habit of dozing off in class, mainly due to two reasons; 1) its undoubtedly impolite toward the lecturer and 2) i don't wanna miss a thing. (by aerosmith. lol)
i'm guessing none of us would understand what it feels like to be teaching a class and some are asleep. until we become teachers ourselves one day. it certainly would feel heartwrenching, it already feels unpleasant enough when you're trying to talk to a party and he/she refuses to listen to you. *looks at cindy* *sniggers*
yet today during microbiology lab practical(!) my eyelids felt oh-so heavy and i found so much comfort in closing my eyes. each time i blink, the second my eyelids tap each other, i'd die to leave them closed. felt like my eyelids were lifting weights. can't understand why was i feelin so dead beat, bio practical has always been fun and enjoyable in secondary school(not forgetting bitchin' with me ol' lab partner leraine *chuckles*) it should've perked me up instead of bore me. @_@
which reminds me, my brother's friend had once been punished for sleeping in class. it was a superbly efficient method:
the 'guilty' is asked to wake up, naturally. but instead of him being directly punished, he remains sitted while the rest of the class is made to stand on their chairs for half an hour! how peculiar. but splendidly effective! i mean, who'd dare to fall asleep again with the risk of getting ALL your classmates suffer aching legs solely because of you? imagine the amount of glares and snorts you'll receive. heh

well, the start of school has kicked off pretty well. the timetable didn't turn out that bad since i'm relishing the company of wonderous class 1B01; my dear spastic 5, can't ever do without them.
recently several of my friends have passed their birthdays and i can't help but dreamdreamdream of what might go on on my own birthday. which is still rather far; nov 12. would there a party? or just a small gathering with the girlfriends? and gosh, i'm even starting to plan my wishlist. i now even know exactly what tops my list! geez.. though i'm quite sure it'll change when my bday really draws nearer. i just need my relatives to know (thats if i do receive any gifts from them) that i'm no longer a kid, and i don't want to receive op bags/plushies/butterfly bracelets anymore. i use makeup and am in need of perfume. :)) i'm delighted to know that many of my classmates' birthday fall in the month of nov too, that means we could have a mass celebration. =)

Fuckfuckfuck school fucking starts tomorrow. which is so fucking unfair. WHY WHY WHY??? does the other schools get to have 7 weeks of vacation while SP!! only gets 4 weeks?!! my friends are still enjoying their holidays, some are even working to earn some spare cash. while pathetic ME can't do the same. grrrr........
Was at dino and vanessa's birthday bashes over the weekend. had a good time, naturally. which is precisely the reason why i DREAD to lug myself back to SCHOOL. i mean, who'd look forward to such a hectic timetable and such tough modules? fuckfuckfuck.

Ya know what? yesterday at diana's place, i watched She's The Man two times. in a row. consecutively. okay with maybe a what, 2 hrs interval. not that i'm complaining, i felt the movie's good so i honestly didn't mind. right, i watched it twice cos i was at diana's and we watched it once when her friends haven't arrived. after the friends arrived, had dinner etc., they settled at the living room and guess what? they started running She's The Man on diana's dvd player! lol, so i proceeded to watch it all over again. amazingly i still enjoyed it the second round.

Ohyeah, the big brother's booked out for the weekend!! we're all thrilled and delighted to see him. after 2 whole weeks of no (as sis put it) loud cursings over the phone, no maplestory adventures and (i added this) no stinky toilet. oops.

everyone including me feels he actually look okay botak! he looks a zillion times neater. teehee. by the way, the cap looks good on me don't cha think. ;) he's agreed to give me the cap after he's bought a new one. since the current one is too small for his big head. =x

The section is dedicated to Samantha, my dear girlfriend. :) a simple, "tribute".

On the very first day i acquainted you, i knew you were more than just a plain girl. it was in secondary school. you had a pitchy shrilly voice and i could immediately tell you were an extremely friendly girl. in spite of your nose piercing, which most people would take one look and slam it claiming you're an ahlian. you certainly didn't have a lack of friends. many of the classmates were flocking around you, as though you were the queen bee within your clique. i had the impression you were one of the famous ones in the class. the first times i spoke with you, you were approachable and responded to me with care and sorta with caution, afraid to say the wrong things lest i feel offended. that's sam for ya, always caring so much for others, and very often TOO much. till you neglect yourself.
you're brilliant at giving your friends advice, as well as supporting them. i love going to you for advice because i know you have the sensibleness to differentiate right from wrong, accompanied by that sharp pair of hearing ears. what more could we ask for? thats why i was kinda surprised when you started s******* (ask me whats that on msn if you dunno). but at the same time however, you are at a loss when it comes to yourself. why? you know how to give others advice but when you encounter problems, you slip and fall almost instantly, succumbing to fate or last resorts, which isn't really the best choice alright. come to me for advice next timeeeee!!! :):) i'm aiming to be a counsellor okayyy. lol

Like you said we both already have our own best friends so we're often busy with ourselves, not bothering to contact one another. or maybe we don't even flash across each other's mind when we start to list our "array" of best friends. but, to be truthful, i've always wanted to be one of your best friends; to "make it" to your list. LOL. thats because i knew you were a girl with great personality. you are passionate about your friends and you certainly treasure them. i figured those out when you came to me concerning your constant problems with one of your gfs? i learnt how much you want so bad to maintain the friendship regardless of the other party's lousy attitude. and, the other party doesn't reciprocate in this sincerity. nonetheless you tried your best to forgive the other party. yet again just recently you've proved your merciful side and earnestness by taking the first step to end the feud.

Your sudden bursts of enthusiasm is another part of you that i love okay. you get so hyper when you start to think of/see something intriguing. lol. great to hang out with ya. i love having hearty chats with ya cos you're a superb listener, AND entertainer.
and i adore your style. you dare to try bright, loud colours. which i personally didn't have the guts to. you're always seen sporting black/bright red painted nails and blue/purple contact lens or mascara. and that's cooooooooooooool!

And you seem to know what you want for yourself. you think hard about your future and you know not to simply mingle and follow the crowd. you're responsible too. i mean, hey, who's the one who have organised the previous class barbecues and casual outings(successfully)?

You are wonderful, sam. one single flaw about you sam, is your tardiness i guess. i know i've already mentioned to you...but don't cha realise you're ALWAYS at least half an hour late? lol, its terrible to make your pals wait. and whats worse is to be late for work alright.. so i hope you'd kick that bad habit! wake up earlier; apply your makeup during the train ride or somethin. =x

what amuses me about me is that you're so gullible! lol, don't get me started on the jokes and silly lies you've ever fallen for. LOL

I couldn't stop laughing aloud when i read the section you wrote for me, sam. its amusing. but really sweet. OI! i like hiroto okay! you can have shou and nao. eeee don't know why you like nao. he's u-g-l-y. =x lol.. FACE IT sam he wasn't sayin samantha. LOLOL. and shou ISN'T hot. he's thin and girly. and yes, i do like listening to nine heads rodeo show or yami ni chiru sakura. LOL! i do feel our 'friendship has gone up a level' too. hahahahha, sounds weird when you put it that way. well, this is it. hope you had fun readin. teehee love ya, my dear. ;)))))))))

Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.

LOL!! why on earth is there such a fear. goodness.

i simply LOVEEEEEE peanut butter. even if it does get stuck to the roof of my mouth, i'll have the pleasure of licking if off! whats the deal abt it. sheesh. lol

very often, late in the night i find myself rummaging the kitchen for food but alas, there's always NO FOOD. no campbelle corn soup. no chocolates(omg, how utterly sinful). no biscuits. seriously. my home's pathetic. there are always however, leftovers and maggie mee. but i HATE maggie mee. and i'm too lazy to warm the leftovers up. i open the fridge and there i see; peanut butter! literally gleaming at me, beckoning me to eat it up. and so, i grab a spoon, and scoop a dollop of it and proceed to lap it from the spoon. kinda like Brad Pitt did in Meet Joe Black. loved that show. which reminds me, Brad Pitt looked so dashingly charming back then in the show. with his gorgeous blonde hair sweeping over his mesmerising eyes...

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SAMANTHA: i'd choose to prefer hiropon or tora now. =x cos they're manly. shou's undoubtedly girly. his wrist action, uhh, kills. and there's just certain actions he does, if you notice. that depicts his girliness. go watch number six PV. he looks girly. unlike my hiropon. hey sam if i blog abt you, you'd have to to do the same then. =X

nictong: SHHHHHH i know they look like girls. so? haha stop betting. HAHAHA jealous what jealous. you don't even have a blog now. HAHAAH i love my puppy what. forbidden city uhh,...sadly, no more already. oops

****bag: wtf u singing. LOL. i love a9 wahhahaah. that website bruises egos.

mic: oh, sighs. probably a warning for my coming despair when school reopens. haha. yaaaaaaaaaay i can meet my dear mic soon. uhh, im not sure which day. plan again la. sms me when u're free.

YY: hahahah BOOOOO harajuku girls. jap girls are damn act cute eh! hate them. oops.

I awoke yesterday morning in much shock. i dreamt that the love of my life; my dear puppy had died. the dream felt so real. as soon i woke up, i scrambled out of my bed and ran to the living room, where his playpen is. he was lying there, safely. as soon as he saw me, he stood up on his hind paws like he always does. i immediately carried him up and hugged him. and tears started streaming down my eyes...

'Members of Visual Kei bands often wear striking makeup, style their hair in dramatic shapes and wear elaborate costumes. Although the vast majority of the musicians are male, band members will often wear makeup and clothing which would be considered 'feminine' or 'androgynous'


I'm currently digging visual kei Jrock band alice nine! (all go: kel listens to Jrock now??!!) i'm expecting some friends to be gawking in awe, since i've always been loyal to solely english r&b music.
*Jrock just refers to the japanese version of heavy metal. there's the thick, heavy, guitar-and-drums-centered sound.
i first learnt about alice nine when i stumbled upon samantha's blog, and her blogskin bore their pictures. i saw their pics and gaped. thats because they looked like girls. yes, guys looking like girls. i know this' probably nothing new to some of you who literally worship Jrock considering visual kei has been the 'in' thing years ago. the guys wore makeup; thick makeup. heavily drawn eyeliner plus eyeshadow, accompanied by coloured contact lens which exhibit strange patterns. that'll make one's eye look diseased or somethin. their hair colour is ALWAYS striking, they can never go unnoticed if they stepped onto some sane street along japan. their outfits manifests unmatching colours, doused with countless chains/belts/sashes around their neck and waist. i first heard alice nine's song when yinying sent me the song titled Corona, and i was captivated. its was strung with passion. uhh, im lost for words. SHOU ALWAYS SINGS WITH PASSION!! right, sam?? XD though shou undoubtedly looks feminine with his enormous puppy eyes, his voice thrills me, and sam. its SO manly, a complete opposite of his looks.


in my opinion, the visual kei makes them stunningly different and interesting. they're daring and bold. well, at least before more and more bands came out and made the whole market saturated. now japan's flooded with visual kei bands i've lost track.
i know probably none of you are interested except probably dearest samantha who started this whole craze within me. but behind the emo/gothic/whatever getup, i realised that alice nine aren't actually what they appear to be like. sure, they look scary and unapproacable, but they are actually hiliarious, silly and often make fools of themselves when they're offstage. or during interviews. like bursting in excitment and endlessly clapping, exclaiming aloud out of the blue, poking fun at one another. infact, even on stage they do inane stuff: they kiss one another, pretend to have spasms and jump around like wild monkeys. they're entertaining and truly a pleasure to watch.

but rest assured i'm not helplessly in love with them till i would cry my eyes out when i watch an emotional video of them. (i joined a forum, there ARE people that crazy. PUH-lease.) there's still some facets of them which i dislike. i still feel a little turned off and disgusted by their overly-feminine pictures.
earlier i was surfing through youtube and i chanced on a video dissing Jrockers. the fella who posted the video up referred to Jrockers as Jfuckers instead. he made clippings of Jrockers on several of their wild escapdaes. it was escorted by a recording of himself rapping a lyric he thought of, making sarcastic remarks of emo Jrockers. sam, hiroto's face was in it. damn. but hiroto is soooooooooo cute! ahem, back to where i was at. i couldn't help but 1) laugh. it cracked me up. he rapped somethin like:
'- girls keep breaking up with me because they say they already have a pussy, they don't need another one.
- i stole my sister's mascara and now i'm in trouble. '
LOL!
and the artist made it so ironic; if i'm not wrong he rapped: 'im not cool cos i dont shave my legs or paint my nails' LOL!


2) agree a little. i mean, what's the deal with the clean shaven legs and eyebrows? THAT, i cannot stand. well i'm not totally sure if they do shave their legs but sometimes they wear shorts(yes, they do) for photoshoots. so i'm guessin they would shave the hair off so they'd look undoubtedly flawless. uh, shaved eyebrows for guys?? and i mean totally plucked off, hairless, clean, not a single strand left. then a short bit is drawn on with the pencil. like those minahs do. *shudders* that goes against nature of guys!! *stomps foot on ground*
remember i mentioned i'd love my guy to have that strip of hair under his navel? well saga always "flaunts" his six-pack-LESS, hairLESS and incredibly FAIR tummy in photos. and his fans will go: 'i love saga's tummy!!' and did i mention his waist is insanely slim? *faint*

seriously, some of the older visual kei bands are REALLY CREEPY. they look terribly horrifying, like they're the living dead on halloween night. ugh. look how creepy they are!
if i'm not wrong these members come from bands like Dir en Grey/Gazette/Lolita 23Q. correct me if i'm wrong, please.
i'm thankful alice nine isn't visual kei to that extent. hang on, i just noticed how much i'm contradicting. NOW how do i redeem myself now that i've just dissed my idols? lol..
okay at least only as my boyfriend, THEN the guy has to have those aspects - hairy/muscles/tanned body. cos thats my taste.

at the same time though, i like alice nine because of the great music they produce. i don't think i've ever heard such a young band play such wonderous in-tune melody. imagine the amount of practice, to create your own beat and tempo. what about the guitarists, how they managed to piece together, such harmonious rhythms. and at such a young age! they're all in their early 20s. i take my hat off to them.

ladies and germs, THIS is alice nine.

see? they're not that bad right? they look like normal, healthy, ALIVE people! haha. the other horrendously visual bands just look dead. alice nine don't even use as much makeup.









of course however, alice nine started out very very visual.

i guess this' the peak of how visual they ever got.



BUT,
i hate to idolise! and i don't wanna. so shou's gotta continue doing the fucking annoying girly wrist action that i hate, so that i won't loooooooooooove him with all my heart till i'd be oh-so devastated and attempt to slit my wrists when i realise one day that he's getting married.

boy am i weird.

for now, i've gotta be goin. for some teppanyaki with nicholas. yumyum. and he owes me starbucks. shall explain in my next post. tralalala


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mic: you'll do a good job babe! u're brilliantly clever, we all know that.
leraine: teehee thanks..
cin: take the simplest gem first. or the ones which aren't as popular. thats what my senior said, because everyone would chiong for it first.
dino: i miss you alot. oh when will your bro be back? be sure to pick him up at the airport when he arrives then. =)

I did super duper badly for the exams i'm really starting to worry about what's gonna happen in future; after i graduate and all. which isn't very far away. what if i don't achieve a gpa of at least 3.5? i won't be able to further my education into a local uni. i could aim for an overseas uni like everyone else is, provided i'm able to save up 80K multiply by 3. cos thats how much the school fees would cost. its SO EXPENSIVE. unless as usual, my parents pay for me. but i don't want to empty their hard earned savings away having to pay for both my brother and i. so of course aiming for the locals Us is better.
i definitely can't work based on my DCP cert alone. it won't fetch me a decent-paying job, or let alone any job. if i did get a job it'll probably be me workin in the lab findin out whats the problem about glycerin being in facial washes. or finding a real substitute for sugar instead of aspartame. which isn't what i want! i really really regret taking the course i'm in. i want to meet people! i want to have to dress up in elegant dresses and chic heels and attend grand dinners with all other top-ranking businessmen at hotels; overseas, if possible. i've always dreamt of knowing exactly what to say to rich, famous people. people who are dropdead intellectual and have braved through storms to make to where they're at. they're critical and would judge you on whatever that comes outta your mouth. i've gotta be able to know the right things to say/bootlick my way to the top. i want to learn interpersonal skills and emotional intelligence and APPLY them when i meet people. i don't even learn them in my current shit course! (no offence to classmates who's enjoyin it). so like i've said i'd study hard and further my dip into something that i really want. business, possibly. so i could do sales, which require meeting of people.

of course with such grades i daren't tell my folks. they'll get so pissed. so i've been avoiding the topic of exams or results when im at home. alas, earlier my dad came up to me and curtly muttered, 'hows the results?'. within that split second i gaped, wondered how come my dad actually remembered i sat for any exam, panicked, flustered and thought of how to put it so my grades don't seem as bad. as i was about to open my mouth to say 'i passed lor', my dad continued: 'Singapore Idol results?'. my reply hasn't been any quicker: 'i didnt watch singapore idol' -_-"

it is a little depressing though to learn that your dad remembers which day screens Singapore Idol elimination round, instead of his own daughter's exam release date.

ohyeah i need a little help for choosing of gems. i have initially decided on taking Designing Cartoons and Animation for Games since designing and drawing has always been my hobby/passion. but then i realised i could take up Psychology and Counselling. one of my ambitions is to be a counsellor. haha. but the bummer part; both are under the choice from Science and Technology. and i'm only allowed to take one. one of my lecturers encouraged us to take up the game design, she has tried it herself and she says its really good. and amazingly, as she was saying it, she looked straight at me as though as she knows design is where my interests' at. and so i subconsciously (and open-mouthed) nodded in agreement to her. now that im contemplating Psychology and Counselling, i consulted yisheng who is already close to graduating from SP, so he definitely knows the ropes. he spat at me exclaiming that Psychology and Counselling would be very tough, there would be group projects/presentations or reports to do. and it wouldn't give me my A. GEMS are supposed to be FREE MARKS, to help us pull our gpa up. but i can't help but feel psychology is gonna help me so much more compared to designing of games. so yeah, im confused.

oh i dreamt 2 nights ago, that i underwent plastic surgery. for 5 bucks. how extraordinary. lol. picture this: i was TALKING to the female doctor as i in the midst of surgery! i asked her whats the cost and she replied, 'only 5 dollars!'. o.O? haha
i've always had my qualms about plastic surgery since some of my friends are against it. fake beauty and so on. but what i felt durin the dream was: for 5 bucks??!! its too good an offer to resist right?? so i was game! who wouldn't be man. after the surgery, my face peculiarly, didn't hurt at all and i had an instaneous recovery. lol. but i didn't get a chance to look to in the mirror before my alarm went off. what a thought-poking dream. kinda wished it didn't end so soon. i want to know how i look after a browlift! bigger eyes? would i look caucasian then so i could easily blend into their nation when i immigrate there? lol

just a piece of advice i wish to give you: (you know who you are) don't read this unless you're the one. shoo. scram.
-please please please don't make rash decisions, im begging you. how many times do you want to fall before you realise u've made a wrong choice? hasn't the first fall been enough? and in case you don't know(which im sure you don't), you are a super duper naive girl. you either trust everything you read/see or you make assumptions thinking you're right. stop making presumptions of the route u're choosing. don't always think its clear, dirt-free and straight. things aren't always as simple. you don't even have any slight bit of experience yet you speak as though you know it and been through it. you've even tried psychoing me into believing what you believe. i remember asking you 'how did you know?' and you replied that you actually didn't. see what i mean? can't you be more careful? before you take the plunge i suggest you find out more about what you're up against. go interview people with experience in that category. wake up and stop being naive! and once again, don't presume that im merely nagging. you never listen! im saying all these cos I CARE. sheesh.

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F.A.D. inah: i love the stuff u make. how issit you can be so artsy-fartsy, good with designs, AND nifty with ur hands? i can't even repair my broken bead bracelet. im envious. anyhow, can't wait to buy our supplies and start our venture! haha
Bryan: haha no, seriously, u won't be able to help but laugh. oops. hey why aren't you added to my msn? or are you?
Diana: my dear, i need my aviator shades. i haven't got them! we'll go out after the imf. uhh, u didn't miss you bro cos.. you don't love/care about him? LOL. i address my bro as 'korkor', go figure.
****bag: wats black in colour & shakes? HARDO GAY! okay i cheated. uhh, wild guess : 50 cent's dick when he's dancing naked? lol pardon me if i sound racist.
huiwen: THAT IS SO LAME. its uncomparable to MY dream, though. =p
nictong: lol, i owe you a teppanyaki. remind me. and you owe me starbucks.
Elaine: thank you so much for ya encouragement babe. love ya

the big bro

the bro's in army now. i've mentioned that my brother and i used to be very close, well yeah we definitely were back then. we used to play with one another every single day without fail and i vividly remember the games we used to play; whatever baloney that entertained us.

i remember the Captain Planet figurine which my bro scribbled onto its eye and kept saying Capt Planet's having sore eyes.

i remember that we loved to eat salt. (yes, believe it or not). we'd "steal" salt from the kitchen by dipping our fingers into the salt container and speed off to my bro's room and hide from my maid behind his bed.

i remember how we ridiculously came up with our own language.

i remember our bizarre self-invented games:
1)My Drink Stall
we thought up a store selling drinks within our home. i pretended to the shop keeper, while my bro as the customer. i'd say 'tikek?', and he'd reply 'umpeh'. that means he wants a drink. then he would say either satu, dua, tiga or umpat. referring to how many cups he wants to order. the max number of cups i sell happens to be umpat(four), apparently because we didn't know what comes after umpat. i mean, we know 5 comes after 4 but we didn't know how to say it in malay language! haha! when he said tiga i had to count under the table using my fingers and he mocked me abt how i didn't know my own language. ahhahaa
2)Gotcha! (sis would rmbr this too)
my bro would stick his finger partially into his nose and fling it outwards screaming 'GOTCHA!' whenever i looked at him. yeah, he did it to sis too. so sis and i started seeking revenge, by doing the exact same thing to him if he looks at us. hahahahaa. this caused us 3, to not look at one another throughout.
3) Zeekkkkk!
my bro knew my neck was hyper-sensitive. if anyone were to place his hand on my neck, i'd jump and lose control of my body, literally. but the catch is, he suffers the same condition! his neck was as ticklish. so to "attack" one another, we would always reach out for... the neck. ohyeah and we named that action 'zeekkkk'.

i remember our favourite game. it was the guns that shoot darts out. his "fort" would be at the right of his bed, while mine; the left. so we'd attempt to shoot the darts at one another, along with lotsa giggles and guffaws the game could last an entire day.

we had loads of fun-filled memories, obviously. we got along so well. during the juvenile days we were literally inseparable. when relatives asked whether i was closer to my bro or sis, i'd immediately reply: definitely korkor!

as we embarked on the journey of growing up, we began drifting apart. its inevitable we've got our differences. he wouldn't bother about me, and neither would i. its almost as though we've forgotten each other's existance. even up till now. okay, we do speak to one another a lil more now, we found common interests in 2 things: clubbing and maplestory. hehe. he tells me which club plays the best music, and what alcohol to take. at times he discusses his maple adventures with me. and im thankful we communicate now.

right now he's in army, its only been 2 days since he was enlisted. just yesterday, i peeped into his room to check if he's around and using the comp, but obviously he wasn't, he's in camp damnit. i haven't adapted to not havin the big bro around. i know i've mentioned there wouldn't be much of a difference since i hardly speak to him. but hell, i kinda miss him now!

this was taken the night before he got enlisted

tee hee, he looks cute. at least, I think he does. i miss you korkor! ahh, he doesn't even know abt my blog. haa

on the day of his enlistment, the rest of the family accompanied him all the way to tekong. :)
hahahahahahaa. i felt kinda amused by the heavily camouflaged soldier. sis took the photo for me. he was super embarrassed i think.
here's what my sis said to me after she took d photo

sis: do you know he was blushing when i said 'handsome guy take photo!'
me: o_O how do you see him blushing through THAT??!

have been out with dearies diana and michelle. was just tellin diana that the hols have been fruitful and fully-made-use-of. i've been goin out everyday, caught up with some old pals. feels great, meeting up with friends you've almost lost contact with. we weren't really kissing, it was edited. its easy to tell. haha. i've caught The Devil Wears Prada. go watch it, its nice. teaches me a thing or two abt decision making. =) great acting by Meryl Streep, as usual.

Replies to tags:

SAMANTHA: lol, you look damn different from the time in sec sch too. cosplay? I'M GAME. i know JUST the place where they sell jappish hats.
F.A.D. inah: lololol, true what, we nvr really liked her anyway. =p riiiiight its mic. hahaha. i never fail to face prob with the uploading of photos. blogger won't allow me to upload photos after i've uploaded afew. boooooo
huiwen: LOLOL
serena: haha, make up works wonders. though i know u're anti makeup. like i was a yr back.
Elaine: hahaha. i like your current look =)
Bryan: ahhahahahah send u the pic? NO! *protect elaine's rights* ahahhaah
cin: I KNOW!!! hahahahahahha. i WAS damn boyish. eww. the past. when i had no taste whatsoever. eww. pfft. spat. bleh.

AHAHAHAHAA. Had a sudden urge to post this, after receiving many of our old school pictures from huiwen last night. That was Charmaine, Fadinah, Elaine and I in secondary school! Ignore that tall skinny girl, we're longer close to her. My gawd... we look so different from the past!

Presenting... ME!
ahahaha. can someone please explain the spikey hair? LOL. WHAT was I thinking! AND wtf watch was I wearing? I can't believe I ever felt that watch was nice. Its obviously nicer for a guy ain't it. Omg.. I used to be anti-makeup, really. I'd hear myself saying "makeup? NO WAY. eee i don't wanna use concealer/eyeliner/blusher". But now, I've discovered the wonders of eyeliners and I don't think I can leave the house with at least a touch of eyeliner and lipgloss. HAHAHA. Speaking of eyeliner, I can't help but feel I look tremendously like an ahlian. Much thanks to my rebonded hair along with black eyeliner drawn on. Very typical ahlian right?? Sighs. But there's THREE obvious things that distinguishes me from those ahlians. 1) I speak english! You'll never hear me breathe a word of chinese. And all my friends don't even bother speaking to me in chinese cos they know I probably won't understand it. 2) I'm FAT. Notice how ahlians are super skinny like sticks? 3) I'm tan. Okay I may not be VERY tan but I want to get tan, which I will be. ahlians are very very fair. ugh.

Some pics of the girlfriends:

Elaine! (don't kill me, elaine. hahah)oh look, spikey hair again. HAHA.

Huiwen:

Charmaine:

Fadinah:heh heh heh. look how smashingly beautiful fadinah's grown to be.

And so,

an award(actually there really isn't any award) shall go the one who's changed the most over the years. the winner is....

ELAINE!! True huh she's definitely the one who's changed the most! She looks SUPER different! Lessee.. she lost the specs and got contacts, lost the long silky fringe sweeping across her face and cut them short, she has dyed hair now, and of course, full makeup on. Makeup really does a great favour. You look good in EVERY pic.

This coming saturday's my dad's bday, and my bro's enlisting into NS. Gee, how time flies. My bro's gonna be a MAN! lol. I don't think things will be much different him around though, I hardly speak to him at home anyway. The only different thing I guess, would be that I wouldn't have any zakum-fighting to watch. My bro entrusted his maple account to his friend to train on his behalf while he's at camp He didn't want me to play cos he believes I would just, die. -.-

I'm goin to sentosa tmr again. I think I've been visiting sentosa very frequently. When I out of sentosa and on the normal SBS bus, I wasn't sure where to alight but didn't worry much cos I've sub consciously expected the bus driver to pick up his mike(??) and inform the passengers of our location. HAHAHAH. cos apparently thats a job of drivers driving the buses within sentosa.



Replies to tags:

Bryan : haha yep, but the cca points aren't enough i guess.. dragon boat? for girls?? HAHAH no kiddin?

cin : YEAH we've discussed before on our usual train ride home right?? eeeeee stuck in lab titrating. ooo why's ur blog ****ed up. haha

Chilli Paddie : HIII JIE!! i missed ya alot, i haven't seen u for ages. yes yes i've read ur paragraph-long tags. tips on blogging? book? me? PUHLEASE! there's LOADS of other ppl who can blog super well. can't wait to sit down and have hearty chats with my sister again.

mic : thanks my dear :) jiayou to you too! btw i went to watch cj's drama play with nic. lol, it was a lil too profound for our dear nic though, =x he kept complaining it sucked.

Samantha: thanks! =) ohyeah, do try to talk things with jere k.. and STOP holding onto "rollcold" ar. lol

Elaine : haha.. thks for the compliment babe. about this post, don't kill me aHHH. =x

Huiwen : hahhaha.. too bad i still posted ur growth chart. hahahha. okayyy whoever who sent them, took LOOOONG.

Huiwen pasted this onto our msn conversation as soon as I came online, which I'm sure all of you have read by now:
If Haven't heard already, Crocodile Hunter steve Irwin died today on the 4th of september, on the Barrier reef, near Cairns As a sign of respect for the Australian cultural icon, place a turtle ( tu ) at the start of ur msn name, and forward this message on to others

"The world has lost a great wildlife icon, a passionate conservationist and one of the proudest dads on the planet," Irwin was famous for his enthusiasm for wildlife and his catchword "Crikey!" in his television program "Crocodile Hunter." It's a huge loss to Australia, he was a wonderful character. He was a passionate environmentalist. He brought joy and entertainment and excitement to millions of people."

I was super duper shocked to read that. As soon I read it I immediately went to Yahoo to check if they've posted it up, they did. So i proceeded to read. Omfg. I can't believe he's dead. I REALLY COULDN'T BELIEVE IT. I used to love to watch his shows. (im not using past tense cos he's dead, its cos i don't watch them anymore -_-). Everytime I turned on the animal planet, when its Crocodile Hunter showing, I'd gleefully continue to watch it. He's always so funny on tv! Enthusiastic, happy and all hyped up. He never fails to entertain with his excitement and eagerness. I'd hold my breath each time Steve Irwin goes really really close to a crocodile or deadly snake or somethin. I won't be surprised you've sub consciously held you breath too. Victor was tellin me that he's always felt Steve Irwin is the most gutsy host ever. His knowledge was phenomenal too; I mean, he knows so much abt those creatures he catches. He had such a deep passion for his job! He doesn't deserve to die at such a young age. I went on to surf the web and found several of his whacky photos. I was close to tearing. He enjoyed his job tremendously and he showed us all what Australia's all about. And he was still so young! And his kids, they're still toddlers for Christ' sake. Their ages added up don't even reach the number 15. What's gonna happen to his wife? Everytime I see them on tv I'd feel they were perfect together. =( What abt his daughter and son? They've gotta grow up fatherless! Which I'm sure they would have grown to be brilliant bright children with the care of great-dad Steve. Hopefully they'd grow up proud of their late wonderful dad. Fuck la, why must this happen to him. sob. I feel awfully upset :'(


I've been thinkin alot lately about my future, I feel utterly worried abt it. With a diploma from my course - Chemical Process Tech, I definitely definitely can't find a job. Even if i do, its probably a low paying one in the laboratory. Which certainly isn't something that suits me, no way. I don't understand why did I choose this course at all. I'd rather have gone into media studies or design since they were my interests/where my talent's at. DAMN. Or least I could go to JC first before I specialise in anything, since I was absolutely clueless abt what I want to be doing in future.
But i seriously can't afford to change my course anymore. Because that'll mean I would have to waste another year, awaiting the next intake. And I'm gonna have to get past my parents' objections. which is quite impossible. They believe this chemical course is perfect for me. Since I excelled in my chemistry during my retained year.
So maybe it was the parents' excellent job of psycho-ing me that landed me in this course. I was psychoed for an hour long lecture into believing this course would bring me many many jobs. Something like marketing; selling health products, consumable products would require some knowledge in chemicals right? Provided I obtain a business degree along with my dip. But I'd prefer to do something I like! Something do to with the media, or counselling. So I could venture into my preference in Uni, then. Take up psychology or somethin. THATS WHY I MUST DO WELL AND MAKE IT INTO UNI. I would need to join a cca and obtain my cca point. But then again if I'm intending to further my studies oversea, I wouldn't need cca points then. I may even have to work, so I can pay for my Uni school fees. I really don't wanna depend on my folks anymore. I admit, among all of my friends, I'm one of those who's made it to the 'Pampered Kid' list.
So I've to study hard like mad and get an incredibly good gpa score and enter Uni, work and earn money to support myself and finally devote myself to a cca. HOW TO JUGGLE. HELP PLEASE.

Anyway on a lighter note, I was at sentosa earlier with Huiwen again.

oh, the walkie talkie? yeah haven't you heard? we're lifeguards now. that explains the yellow/red Beach Patrol uniform. hahaha NAH, the walkie talkie belongs to adrian(your friendly lifeguard at sentosa). =p

I tried on a billabong bikini which is sooooooooooooo nice. Its a black base with silver printing on! And the usual grafitti style of prints. Its bright/flashy/attractive. But, I tried it on and i looked too fucking flat. Maybe cos I am. Huiwen had a weirded-out look pasted on her face, so did the sales girl. Cos I'm too fucking flat chested and the bikini looked horrid on me. I looked at the 19 yr old sales girl, looked down onto her chest area, she was so well blossomed and full grown lar. She had a hot pink bikini on and she looked fab. Gawd~ all of a sudden I wish I had bigger, fuller boobs. All these while I've condemned huge breasts cos I had the impression that if they're big, they'll just get in the way all the time, or jiggle like nobody's business when you try to run, which is fucking embarressing cos EVERYONE both guys and girls, would stare so hard you'd wish you could just disappear. But now I've realised the importance of having big breasts. 1) ALL MEN like big breasts, don't deny. 2) So I can buy any bikini and look great in it. Shiat.

Btw, I fucking HATE that nudging tool k, it annoys me cos I'm busy when I'm editing pics or maybe cos 9 ppl are chatting with me at a time or I'm checking my mail or perhaps transferring files or WHATEVER. so do me a favour and kindly STOP nudging me on msn. I'll reply you when I want to.

I realised something heartwrecking. For me, at least. Just the day before, I was swiping on my MAC lipgloss, when I heard my maid exclaim that the puppy was eating his own poop again. I ran out, still holding onto my lipgloss. I got so fuming mad at him for eating his poop cos we've tried many many times to train him not to. That I hit his head hard with my lipgloss. He whinced and shut his eyes while I hit him. Today, my dad was tellin me that he found a bump on puppy's head and he suspected it was bumps so he applied some ointment. I took a look and can't help but have delusions that the bump was developing directly on the spot where I've hit him and its a sore. It probably was. :'(



Here's some photos from the days before:

LOVE MY KFC TO BITSSS!!! Incase you're wondering, KFC stands for KellynFadinahCharmaine. teehee.



tried to make her look like she's eating one of those "growing" things.



She's holdin onto the rose Glen and I got her. ;) When I think of the term 'teacher', I think of Mrs Lai. She's the only teacher whose left the deepest impression in me. I wouldn't have made it to where I am now(a reputable polytechnic) without her. Anyone else in my class would share the exact same sentiments. Love her.

I've changed my email address. Cos the old one, 'icystars_kel'? Corny. super corny. And childish. Its so typical primary/secondary school. Its now infectiousmile@hotmail.com. Do tell me that my smile is infectious yea. Anyway, I had a hard time adding my contacts onto the new msn, because I was deciding on who to add, and who not to. I can't be bothered to add certain contacts anymore cos we've either lost contact ages ago, or he/she's changed email addy and don't sign on anymore, or I really just don't remember who the hell those email addresses belong to. But, I feel like I'm losing friends. I mean, its always better to have more connections right? But at the same time, I don't wanna have shit assed junk-filled msn list. THATS another reason why I changed my email address.

Its 4:34am and I'm still wide awake. There's a problem with my body's snoozing system, apparently. I'm turning into a zombie, literally.

There's practically NOTHING to do these days. LOL, but thats cool. I mean, no homework/housework. BUT, I've been goin out and spendin money. I've become a useless bum! Make that, zombiefied useless bum. Speakin of spendin money, I need more cash.

Time to rehearse: "mum, i spent like 17 bucks on cab last night!! stupid movie ended so late. what a way to spend money! BAH so, can i have some money? i need to buy present for blah blah blah." *stretches out hand*

*retreats only when 50 bucks is placed in palm*

"YAY!"

I'm SUCH a spoilt brat.