A few things on my mind currently...

Sony Ericsson is the best phone ever! I don't have to bring my mp3 player out anymore because firstly, the sound system of sony is fantastic!! Its a WHOLE different feeling from listening to songs through my laptop or mp3. My phone allows me to toggle the equalizer and bass effects, the earphones provided are compact -- air tight so the music doesn't spill out unlike my mp3's. Where I have to end up cranking the volume up to almost the max and others around can literally identify what song am I listening to. Super embarrassing. So I sooo much prefer listenin to songs using my phone.

Secondly, I remember myself being annoyed over some phones or mp3s that don't allow us to put songs of wma format in. And how the government was trying so hard to stop piracy right? Well the only non-piracy way of getting music is to stop downloading and BUY the cds right? So obviously we'd want to insert the songs into our miniature phones or mp3 because discmans aren't utilised anymore. But the songs, after being ripped into the comp, is in wma format! And we are so lazy to change every 10 or so songs EVERYTIME we rip a cd right? So I can't understand why the hell doesn't certain phones allow wma format songs?

Well Sony Ericsson phones do! i.e. MY phone. =D and i loveeee my phone.

Two-faced or Considerate? Like when you sorta dislike a certain friend's behaviour at times...and even gossip about him/her. But for the sake of other friends, you try your very best to get along with him/her each time you all hang out together. I'd say its being considerate and gracious. Who would like it if anger or hatred is expressed openly and others around would have to put up with it? And eventually cause a fall out within friends all in all.

Or if an argument broke out everytime when friends are hanging out together. I find it magnanimous, admirable and definitely a plus-point when someone is able to hide his/her displeasure and not allow their own unhappiness affect others around.
A psychologist's opinionon the other hand, would be that that's being plain 2-faced. Which I cannot understand why. Why do we have to be rigid i.e. behave the usual, expected way and instead be emotionally intelligent instead i.e. spare a thought for others?


I've finally gotten several things done;
Bought more new year clothes and..,
gotten my IC made and braces done.
Well I've still gotta wait for the darn IC to be processed and its taking a frigging month. And I haven't got the braces up yet cos' I've decided to wait till after CNY so that I can still devour new year goodies!! nah the main reason's just cos I didn't have 2k to pay for the deposit required by the dentist. haha
But I have some blue rubber bands inserted in between 4 of my molars so as to widen my teeth space and also, give me a feel of pressure onto my teeth. Its kinda aching my teeth. Imagine chewing on a rubber band. Yeah thats what I'm feelin right now as I bite down hard. eek.

HENCE

I'm so short on Moolah right now.. anyone willin to donate? or maybe I shall do somethin evil! Get my dad to give me money to apply for my driving license... and "fail" the test! Then ask for a second round of cash THEN really apply for it. HARHARHAR

Btw I bought some fake plastic nails. hahahaa. I bought them because I've alway had the problem of keeping long nails. I never fail to bite them off and my nails are forever short. Sometimes my friends have long nice manicured nails and I'd take a look at my short bitten nails and sigh. LOL not anymore. Each box of fake nails has spares to cater to all sorts of sizes. They're soooo much mucccchhhhh better than having to paint and paint your own nails!! Just apply glue, stick them on and voila! The designs are presentable and they're cheap too! If not I could just get the acrylic plain long nails and design them myself. I got mine at bugis street and Daiso (2 bucks only MUAHAHAHAH). the ones at daiso are not too bad. hahaa

I'm super looking forward to chinese new year. tee hee.. CNY means alot to me ever since I was young, I really enjoy CNY. I know this might seem strange since I'm 'jia kantang' typed. LOL. But I look forward to not just the ang pow money I get to receive (i know im money-faced) but also the warmth when I visit my relatives. I mean, we don't even get to see our relatives at all thoughout the entire year except for CNY. Compared to CNY x'mas is 'blah~'. Christmas isn't anything special to me, I could just stay at home that night or hang out with a couple of friends whom we see every other day. CNY on the other hand allows me to meet up with my aunts, uncles, cousins etc. We catch up and have snacks, my grandaunt will endlessly repeat how much we've grown and prettier we've become with a smile on her face. Its a really warm feeling, I love it. :)

We ventured into CHJIMES last night and the place is dazzling.

Doesn't this look cool?




Douglas Olivera was performin that night.

In the middle of his perfomance he asked our table aka the three girls if we wanted him to sing any song for us. haha!

The waiter gaves us cherries! free! XD

This pic's my new desktop wallpaper. haha.

Went to the chinese doc earlier; due to my frequent sorethroats.

everything's in chinese!

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I've been rotting at home like a piece of thaw-ed meat. I badly need a job. Ah yes I bought a new pair of jeans skirt for cny. Now there’s some progress. haha

My mum's friend feels I should get my degree overseas. So that I don't take up another 3 years in polytechnic. Though its expensive but if I enrol into poly again and pay for the fees THEN enter university, it still adds up to be the same. My mum said so herself. So I take it that she's supportive of that too!

At least if I jumped straight to a uni overseas, I can attain my degree in a shorter period time of 3 years, compared to if I enrol into a local polytechnic again THEN uni for yet another 3 years. Thats a whopping whole 6 years!



I want to be a DJ or a news broadcaster, or someone who hosts a television programme. I wanna go into mass comm. I wanna do English based modules; writing, talking and learn some interpersonal skills.
Apparently previously when I mentioned I wanna go into media instantly people would think I'm referring to an advertising career I'm aiming for. I don't want to do digital media digital arts or digital design. That's a whole different line all in all.

A friend in Melbourne Uni says that school offers exactly what I want. Whatsmore for a media-based course I'm aiming for, its better studying it in dept and concentrated. The ones offered in poly locally are rather saturated. PLUS, I might not be accepted into polytechnic again. Since vacancies and priority is given to fresh O level grads. The friend in MU says that everyone else around is at 16 years of age too. Cos they enter uni straight after O levels. What I'm gonna have to do, is to start of by taking a foundation year. Then I can choose the degree to apply for. After which, my friend says I could still change my mind. He complains about how rigid the education system is in Sg as its so hard to change your course when I told him about my plight. He says in Melbourne its not at all surprising to see students change their course even in their third year. The school even allows credit points transfer. Thats because they themselves don't expect the students to know exactly what they want to be in future. That's SO MUCH MORE HUMANE!!! Based on my friend's account, Melbourne has loads of asians studying there too. It shouldn't be too hard fitting in. Plus I could get my driver's license there! Cheaper!. =D

But of course it all boils down to whether my folks give the green light.. if I do go, I'm gonna leave my ALFIE!!! sob



Replies to tags:

Elaine / SLL.MITMIT ♥: i wish i lived there. its sooooo much more convenient to where i'm staying at now *pouts*

cindyys: Yeah he smsed me; he claims i was his favourite student. haha. he asked what happened to me but i was too lazy to reply him. LOL! i read his text only in da morning you see. *sheepish* LOL! hahahahah yeshhhh walking round twice the world? thats so exaggerated cinday. LOL

****bag: hahahah shhhh what donut maker LOL. i'm singing along to Tu Amor. xD thank you so so so much, I'm so touched =D

yy: LOL yepyep.. wahahah i don't find it racist, i like it too WAHAHAH

AdriaN: arlow!!

Firdaus: thanks thats so sweet! xD haha. thats provided i get into SP. we'll see..

I dreamt of Fadinah last night; we were chatting merrily like we used to and it seemed so real I almost thought she had come back to life. When I awoke it struck me, how much I have so much to tell her. Everything that's happening in my life now, so many things have changed, and she is indeed one of my friends whom I love talking to and trust dearly. I miss her so...

Speakin of which, you know sometimes when you're alone you'll tend to do something stupid like talk to yourself, or maybe even dance right? Well everytime I do something like that I'd wonder if Faddy can see me doing so. lol. Then things would really feel awkward all of a sudden... haha.




Remember that new condo being built right outside Kovan MRT station? I've been walking pass that condo in curiousity every single day. It looks so big and.. oh-so appealing. Well I was finally at Kovan Melody's showflat earlier with my family. sans the big bro of course; army... Sigh. Alfie hardly responses to him now. :/

Anyway the place is BEEEEEAUUUUTIFUL. I was super astonished. Managed to snap some pics..




Omg omg I loved the design of this room! My sis says its SOOO suited for me cos I'm always having friends over at my place. That corner that my sis' in; is where we can just bump on and stuff. Cool shit.




And I really like this room's structure too. Check out the HUGE MIRROR.


Amazing how such a small condo can be so nice huh? And there's those back doors instead of the pathetic one entrance with the gantry Palm Grove has. Which is guarded by 'tiko' guards all the time. Urgh. My sis kept warning my dad that if we moved here, all my different boyfriends can now sneak into my room via the back door. HAHA
Siloso-ed (:


Somehow my eyes looked grey in the photos. So I ended up taking loads of photos of myself. Pardon me for committing in helpless narcissism. tee hee





Makes me wanna get grey coloured contacts. haha. After all, my brother has bought em' before too.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I have successfully withdrawn from my course at SP. Its supposed to be a sigh of relieve but no, I'm infact feeling really worried I'm left school-less. BUT, I've been contemplating long enough about my future and its time I did something about it. I am SO SO SO certain I am not the sort of person who'd stay locked up in the laboratory as my career. I need to run around, and meet people. I cannot possibly imagine myself talking to a test tube my whole life.

I do still, admire and take my hat off to those who are capable of doing so. Well its all about interest and there are indeed those who have told me; they see themselves studying more pressure valves and drawing graphs. Its thanks to these smart engineers and brilliant scientists who built Singapore today. I however have no capabilty to provide in that sector; I'm not inclined to invent new deodorants nor perfumes for Nina Ricci.

Digressing, the darn nozzle for my beloved Nina Ricci perfume dropped and rolled off to god-knows-where!! DAMNIT

I can only foresee myself adding more words being spoken on the television or radio. I see myself studying more english-based modules and not physics nor Amaths. Hell I didn't even like those subjects in secondary school. Up till now I'm still thinking; Why? why? Why did I join science in polytechnic? Even my new classmates could tell I'm not suited for it. At least everyone else in class has had some physics background, or they could fare well for engineering mathematics. Me? A master of none.

I actually have been aiming for the media since I was in.. sec 3 I think? When we students went down to TP and I attended a lecture on Communications and Media Management. I was so motivated and driven to go into the media industry. I wanted to become a newsbroadcaster. That was my ambition. I even told my relatives and they were supportive of me!

But my O level results diminished my dreams as I didn't get my A for english language. Gawd I was crushed. I thought of going into design; as I enjoyed drawing. I was smart considering design - at least drawing's my interest. But my dad discouraged me as design is saturated in Singapore and there's only one path to go into after graduating - Advertising. Then, everyone started telling me what a good job scope science offers. I heard about the inventions DCP graduants came up with - perfume, low-fat kaya and etc. and so, I STUPIDLY went into the course.

But once I was in the science course I'd look at Suzanne Ho on teevee and I'll endlessly feel sorry for myself. Its time its really time to do something about my sorry life. Now, wish me luck that my direct application's successful. Or I would end up school-less. And my life would officially be screwed.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

My throat's been acting up again; I keep getting sorethroats once in awhile its scary. I should be going to see the doctor for a checkup. The doctor once told me (the last time i was there cos of a sorethroat!) frequent sorethroats could be due to throat cancer. Geez.

Right. And I need a job. I hope to find a job where I do photo editing! For perhaps wedding photoshoots or somethin. Then I'll enjoy my job; and at the same time earn some ca$h!

Alright Ciao, guys.

My adorable dog keeps walking by my room to stop and gaze at me xD



I love the song Linger by The Cranberries so so much.

But I'm missing you
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger, ah Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger

xD

Its the butterflies in stomach feeling again
Being in love = stupidity
Missing someone who's impossible to be with = as stupid as can be.

A stupid stranger added me to msn. I don't know why but I can't stand such strangers when they add u to msn. They all turn out to be horny dicks. So I don't even know why i bother to put my email addy at friendster. I think i shall remove it.

The stranger's now asking what am I doing. I told auggy I wanted to say something annoying and he told me to tell the stranger that I'm jerking off. with my dick in my left hand. LOL!

Oh God he keeps msging me even when im not replying. o_O wtf?

He even nudged me.

i HATE IT when ppl nudge me for no reason. Just bcos they want me to reply them first. HELLO? I'm talking to more than one person here? plus I may b busy surfing the web. What on earth makes you think you deserve priority. At least if they nudged me to accept some file being sent its understandable.

WHAT THE FUCK he nudged me AGAIN. dumb fuck

stupid attention seeking despo. Can't he TELL that me, this gorgeous (he saw my pic and said so) chick has loads of other men to chat with. and I can't b bothered to entertain LOSERS who nudge.

HAHAHAHAHA

know whats his email addy?

dickjoe@hotm...

o_O

and his nick is tom

well tom, i happen to HATE the stupid name tom and i don't care if it is or is not ur name since u put it at ur nick i presume it is

and can u stop nudging me? or rather, do us both a favour and stop IM-ing me now. thank you

Okay I blocked him already.

HAHAHAHAHA I think I'm mad.

Was at siloso beach again yesterday and it was great. Siloso beach's possibly my favourite-est spot of Singapore. =D

There's the newly opened bar at siloso, called Cafe Del Mar, betcha heard of it? AWESOME place. There's 3 pools. Yes, within the beach. And the pool reaches to the bar counter. In other words you could sip on your vodka, half immersed in water. FABULOUS concept. The music's soothing, the seats out in the sand are infact bed-like mattresses, and the best part is? That place is SPILLING with caucasians. TRALALALALALA I shan't elaborate anymore. xD

Check out da website of Cafe Del Mar! http://www.cafedelmar.com.sg/main/

i'm so bored im gonna blog again. Okay nothin substantial about this post cept' a shit load of pics i've been meaning to upload.

hahhahha. see, jason copied my nick.




Check out the size of that puppy.



I had my hair temporarily curled. lol. i looked EXACTLY like my mother. incase you're wondering how much I had to pay for the temp curls? cost = none.





The outcome?

Omgosh I look so much like my mum. lol

And some pics of Elaine when I was out with her, only cos she questioned why I don't ever upload any pictures of my friends onto my blog. And also cos the new mozilla which I installed doesn't have a bug anymore; whereby I can't upload any pictures as soon as I type anything in here.





Discovered a hair colour changing tool on photoshop, so...




I know it sucks shit and I've got loads of polishing to work on. lol. but still, its interesting. thrilling.

Huiwen and I on our way to da countdown Siloso Beach party


My cousin Michelle and I. at the par-tay.

I'm seriously gonna miss my darling cousin when she goes away for 3 whopping years. I gotta get a m to da i to da c. Aka mic. and a webcam.

And if u clicked onto jason's convo earlier, you'll see I typed that I want a new camera. hahhaha. Despite the fact that my current camera cost my mum more than 500 bucks, its 6 megapixel, and its so slim and RED. The shots are SUPER BLUR as long as I don't have flash on. Sigh..cos its fast shutter speed. I bought the cam thinking that fast shutter speed's good but I realised its pointless without flash on as it just makes the images really really blur. It doesn't have an auto-focus. Get what I mean? Oh noes what's gotten into me, I'm becoming more and more materialistic!

Okay I'm going to bed now. Goodnight all!

wahahahhaha charmaine downloaded torrents for games our phones!!! got LOADS OF GAMES NOW MUAHAHAHHAHA

eh? wtf? blogger has this function where it'll identify non-english words ala add the red sguiggly line under the word and provide spelling suggestions. wtf?? obviously majority of us don't use proper english when we blog right? especially those twits. its even suggesting that english is to be typed as 'English', with a capital E. LAME. the function, that is.

I pasted blingy thingys all over my phone!

Err, yeah and huiwen too. And she got the same phone as me @_@

Mine's the phone with the bunny attached to it. Huiwen's has the pink turtle. Aren't we good? =D

@_@ This is super ridiculous. BK's fish burger may contain bones? lol. but the burger's good. Especially when you have it with good company. da DCP classmates at east coast park! okay some, of the DCP classmates. playing spastic games and basically laughing aloud. i love that, love them. =D

Replies to tags:

cindyys / YY: thanks for da support! but yeah, i feel sad thinking about leaving y'all and being in year 1 again. :(

****bag: haha, jealous of my nails rite? keke. i can help you do next time =P nope, my place wasn't hard for him to find. amazingly.

tingg: yeah, though i have to waste a year but its my future at stake. im ready for it.

Firdaus: haha. its good that you've figured out what you want in life. =]

SAMANTHA: keep your nails long then i can help u do too!! =)))

nictong: HAHAHAHAHHA. order la!

-BEL: happy 2007 to you too niece! lol

DIY nails never seemed that easy to accomplish. However, I did those nails earlier in a jiffy, inevitably screaming 'FUCK!' whenever my hair touches a wet nail though. So, do they look good? Good thing michelle was over at my place and I got her to help remove the ruined nail. LOL


--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I have been deciding for a very long time now and I've finally made my mind up to change my course. I know I have complained a dozen million times that my course; a science course, really isn't my thing. I yearn to talk and meet people but my course certainly doesn't allow that. We don't even learn foreign languages here. On the other hand, I see friends conducting surveys and learning other languages. I can't help but feel envious. Obviously they're being prepped up to meeting big shots and the art of communicating with such people. Even for elective modules, the science school had Interpersonal Skills blocked so we couldn't apply for it! But it was open for other schools! What on earth! I've long wanted to brush up on my talent of speaking and interpersonal skills, but no, I do not learn such things in my course. I am the sort of person who wishes to speak aloud and others listen to me. I like the attention. Especially since I am a straight forward, and outspoken person. I like to gussy up and look so appealing that others to turn their heads and look at me, and say, I know that girl.

Everyone's telling me science has a good market, but I do not see the point in me remaining in science when I've completely lost my interest and passion in science over this 1 year of trying it. Besides, even if I graduate from Chemical Process now, I wouldn't be able to find a job with a diploma alone, and I wouldn't want to work in the damn fucking lab. That means I'm gonna have to further my studies (SCIENCE again) into a degree, and that means continuing to suffer for yet another 4 years, and then WORK in the science industry and suffering for the fucking rest of my life. I do NOT want to study pressure valves, draw cheem-logy graphs, nor do differentiation ever again. I know maths is everyday but I do not have 'yuan' with mathematics so I fail to excel in it ok.

Digression. hg 122 ---> my mac delivery order code. heh

Interest brings you far. I have to pursue my interest which is the media. I don't care about the amount of time I'm taking, as long as I get to do whatever I want.

I can't believe I had my closest friends who know me so well, tell me umpteen times since day 1 that science just isn't me, and yet I went ahead with that course. And now I'm regretting. I have regretted my choice since the first semester but I had to wait till the next JAE intake to change my option anyway.

Now, the time is nearing and its my chance to pounce at it. I shall try to get a transfer when school starts. I have friends who have dropped out of school, almost instantly when they figured what they're doing isn't what they want. I, on the other hand, have been a lost sheep since I received the O level results and fucking went into the wrong course. I admire and am envious of those friends who had so much guts to hop over to what they want not giving a shit about what others say, yadayada. About the waste of time, and how they should complete whatever they're doing right now since they're already halfway through it. But I've come to realise that interest is the crucial crucial bit of the course we're in and our future is at stake.

Okay I think my friends are tired of hearing my complaints, fine, except michelle. (she asked me to type this!) LOL


--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Everyone knows I have a super inconvenient walk into my home. Well, last night on my way back, there were bangalas gathered at the phonebooth and as diana, elaine and I approached it(i have to walk past the phone booth to get home), those muthaf**kin bangalas turned to stare and stare, and SMILE at us. They even made that tsk noise that ah bengs like to when they're calling their species for attention. FUCK! So, I had to trouble diana and elaine to walk me in. AND walk one whole round so we don't have to pass the phonebooth. omfg..

Remembered I mentioned the Siloso Beach Party had loads of bangalas? OMFG they shouldn't even be invited to such parties!! They don't even know how to behave themselves, they molest girls like nobody's business. REALLY, THEY DO. I mean, if they really wanted to be able to grab boobies, don't they at least have the decency to try to hook up girls i.e. the right way. Not that I'd want to be be hit on by a bangala, but seriously, those fucking molesting bangalas are getting on my nerves. They grab boobs at parties from behind, and even reach into skirts. OMFG. Good thing I had my brother and his friends to protect me from their spiteful grabs. I am NOT going to another party like this ever again thanks to that 'Dark Side'. Grrr.. though these parties has loads and loads of caucasians. GAHH. Everytime I turned to look to look around, I'd spot a good looking caucausian. when I complained to roger that the Dark Side ruined the fun, he said this to me: But you had some the Light Side too what. -__-"

At one point of the foam party I totally lost the mood for partying and stood still with my arms crossed. Because some bloody bangalas suddenly had some freako outburst of excitement and sprinted at top speed, WITHIN the foam area. They ran toward our group of friends and literally bumped huiwen and I off our feet. *PISSED off* the reason why I said the countdown was fun in overall was cause of the great company I was there with.

Who the hell do those bangalas think they are, smiling and making noises at us. URGH.

Do you see where this is going? Girls like me will not ever go for such a party ever again with all those bangalas allowed to attend them too. I mean, who'd want to go and get groped? So with the lack of girls, there'll be a lack of guys. And eventually in future, no one would attend those parties at all anymore. And these parties won't be lucrative anymore. So, they should just ban bangalas (the terrorists) from coming for such parties to avoid that catastrophe from happening.

And remember those bad experiences where they raided our dear orchard road? Omg I shan't even elaborate. All I know is that they're the source of increased road fights, since they spray those foam things on practically everyone and hence result in getting themselves into fights. Damnit those dumb fucks.

Okay I've received my macdonalds delivery. I can't help but question the delivery boy if the place was hard to find. lol. I offered him a fruit cake. heh. Oki ciao~

Alfie the dog says Happy New Year to all!! (:(:

Sorry that I'm so terribly lazy to blog, I have been pretty busy myself. Busy doing what? Why PARTYING OF COURSE! Was at the Siloso Beach party countdown and it was pretty much a blast! Considering that the place was streaming with caucasians! Yes, I do have a fetish for them, not that ma friends don't already know. Don't call me an spg, them caucasians are indeed pretty much different compared to the men back here. AH shan't care about what others think, I am what I am and I love myself. =D
The only HORRID part of the party was the numerous amount of bangalas. Oh fuck it, they shouldn't even be allowed to such parties. Shall elaborate on my next post since I'm rushing to go to bed so that I can get up early the next morning to jog. heh.

These hols... Constant late nights, outings and more. Except for the day only that I was down with stomach flu. :( it was bad, puked twice. sucked.

This was on Glen's birthday, which falls on the 26th Dec. =]

Took some neoprints!! =D

Are new year resolutions really necessary? Coz I'm really bad at them. In the first place, coming up with any are already difficult enough, let alone FOLLOW them.

There is, however one that I've been meaning to accomplish :

STOP BITING MY NAILS.

and I was never able to kick that habit. Infact, I just bit off a nail earlier. URGH.

Happy new year once again all! :)