Stark Ravings

I wish i could have enough discipline to get down and finish reading up a book. we all know its always good to read, your command of language improves and you'd definitely learn a thing or two from the book. but i can't seem to get my dusty ass to literally complete a whole book. the book does interest me and all but i seem to find more pleasure in using the internet. which really gets me hooked on for ages, till i neglect my homework and etc. thats much worse isn't it. grr. thats why e-learning week DOESN'T work for me, at all.

yesterday i had a half bath. thats cos' i completely forgot to soap my body! after shampooing my hair, something got into my eye so i walked to the mirror and tried to get it out. after which, i absently mindedly forgot i ain't squeaky clean yet. i conveniently towel dried myself and slipped into my clothes. only after getting dressed, THEN it struck me that i haven't applied conditioner NOR soap. how silly. has that ever happened to you? LOL. i got too lazy to strip and shower again. so i put bath off to the next morning. shhh..

recently i've been watching a japanese serial yinying lent me. its SUPER SUPER sad. i couldn't stop crying on almost every episode. when i left the house later my eyes hurt and my vision was blurred. LOL! i felt amused by my own emo-ness. i used to define myself as someone who is tough on the outside, and who'd never shed a tear infront of others. i never liked crying in front of others. its an ugly side, with smudged mascara running down your cheeks and puffy swollen eyes. not forgetting looking weakly vulnerable too. whenever i watched a sad movie no matter how sad it was, i'd fight my tears back, i didn't want my friends/family see me cry. i didn't like girls who cried alot, and i would find myself snubbing people who cry infront of me. i always believed that one needs to be strong. and not resort to tears. which is really strange now, come to think of it. girls are naturally weaker creatures compared to men, and sometimes the only way to let our feelings out is by these tears. right now i believe its perfectly fine to sob infront of friends, they are around to give you strength. imagine having to pretend like nothing's wrong when your heart is infact breaking. its okay to turn to friends and family for support, and help with whatever you need when you're depressed. no one's going to blame you, it isn't right to hide emotions and pretend to be tough. especially when others are aware that you are actually acting. now, when my girlfriends cry i'd hug and comfort them. nothing's wrong with crying, right? my eyes hurt right now, i just watched episode 7. baahhaaha
i remember the times i've bawled my eyes out. they were when i flunked my Os and when each time when my ol' pets died(yes, i have murdered many animals). there were more times, of course. but i don't remember.


The award for cutest boy in the world goes to:

have met up with Laijie recently and once again he proves why he was labelled cute, small boy of the class. he's nutty and hilarious; never fails to crack me up every time. i'm glad i've got him as my friend. :) though we aren't extremely close, but i know he's a friend who's most accomodating and cheerful. did i mention he looks kinda like a hamster? LOL

Nouru: lol, were you sleepin in class?
yiniE: HAHAHAHAHH! O_O and don't forget the drooping mouth
Diana: hello my darling. lol sch's fine. :)
Elaine: hellos, i didn't bump into you at PS last night. i bumped into huiwen and diana. haha
serena: yep..love the class. thats sweet, thanks so much! :)