Stark Ravings

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Today my eye had a huge swollen jelly thingy in it and the whole eye was red. i freaked out, getting so worried i'll turn blind. anyway, i've seen the doctor and apparently its NOTHING really. just some dirt that entered my eye and caused the water to coagulate up due to gravity. -.-"
but because of that, i had to skip the malaysia trip and waste my parents' money of 51 bucks. holy crap.

the thing about me is that i'm too spoilt. i'm a spoilt brat really. my aunty juliet (she's really my ex-maid, who got married to a caucasian and hence moved over from Phillipines to the states) bought me a Coach bag which probably cost 200bucks. My mum says she specially chose it for me. I took a look at it and said, I don't like it.

instantly my dad and mum in unison told me to choose another that i like. and so i did. omg, what's WRONG with me? I hardly (in fact never) even get to see that aunt anymore and all i could do was simply claim that I don't like the gift that she chose, bought and flew all over to Singapore from the states.
but, i DID feel bad and told my mum i'll use it anyway, just because its aunty juliet who bought it.

the same scenario was when i asked for the pink psp while i got the blue one. i wouldn't stop complaining, till i got scolded and lectured at, thats when i felt like i've shrunk. shrunk to the size of an ant; helpless and lost. You know in Ally Mcbeal where Ally would reduce to the size of a rat when she feels stepped on. Yes that's exactly what I felt.

I ask for too much. i really do. i always get my way and still, do. this is kellyn for you, when do i not put myself first?
i have been told my ego is huge and i always want to win
i have been told that i'm super direct and straight forward
i am insensitive.


i need
someone who'd dare to shout at me
someone to bring me back to reality
someone to teach me how to appreciate
someone to make me put others infront of myself

... and I must say I've found him.
he's more than a partner, more than a best friend. I learn from him. alot.

And I'm thankful. =)



Changed url. Its so much easier to blog what I want to now.