Stark Ravings

I believe I'll never get over it. I'll never get over the fact that I totally screwed up two years of my life- after O levels where i fucked up, and had to repeat them all over again. After getting better grades, i fucked up again by going into the wrong choice of course at polytechnic. Sooo... i'm approaching NINETEEN this year and I'm still at fucking YEAR 1. i hate hate hate to see younger people at year 2, peers at year 3. I know that sounds selfish but yeah, I hate that feeling. And i'll never get over it. Till today I frown and scold myself, why why why didn't I work hard, or at least not be too naive to fall into that premature specialization trap.

CRAP this feeling sucks.